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Source of Paul’s boldness

One of the things that stood out to me the most was the source of Paul’s boldness. Since he is hard-pressed in both directions, to live and die (to be with Christ), he is in a win-win situation. Paul’s desire for death serves as one of the main driving forces of his boldness for Christ, I think I can learn something from that.

I like thinking about random scenarios, there are days where I would check myself and ask the question: “If a gunman were to enter into the church right now, and promise to shoot the ones who proclaim Christ Jesus, would I jump to the gun?” Most days it’s yes, not always. In thinking about the physical death, I think I’m mostly fine with dying, while Paul desires to die. Maybe it’s because I have yet to grasp completely the fact that my life is not my own, unlike Paul, who says “I do not know which to choose.” I’m more along the lines of “I would like to live, but I mean… if you want me to die, I suppose.”

Paul knows that since he isn’t the one to choose and he is simply supposed to do what he was meant to do: if he is to live, then to live like Christ, if he is to die, then all the better. Maybe that’s why he’s not afraid of messing up this earthly flesh for the glory of God.

“My Hero” by Planetshakers

The chorus goes “My life is not my own, Lord Jesus take control, I give you everything, you are the reason I stand”



4 thoughts on “Source of Paul’s boldness

  1. I’ve tested myself with the same question, actually. And that’s a good point you’re making.

    Posted by ladydragonart | February 11, 2008, 12:53 am
  2. Certainly. I totally agree. I think that also since Paul has already given up his life in the sense of control, he has been freed to live life as God intended it to be, whether he is to live or die; that day is not for him to decide, so he is freed of that burden.

    Also that he recognizes that to die also serves to glorify the Lord. I like how you put it: “Win-Win situation.” Amen.

    Last thing: there’s totally a story like that. read it in Voice of the Martyrs Extreme Devotion Book. Basically, a group of Christians were together doing their thing in a church building when 2 soldiers came in. They waved their guns and had the congregation separate into those who would declare their faith (and thus stay to die) and those would get up and leave. Once everyone had made their decision and those who would leave had left, the soldier put down their guns and said that they were Christians as well, but they just didn’t want to worship among hypocrites.

    Though we all might not be called to give up our lives in such a way, we all need to regard our lives as things that don’t belong to us and thus have in our hands but yet don’t hold on, always ready to give to the Lord should He ask for it.

    It’s always a good indicator of what our idols are if we are unable to give it up when asked to. I guess in that sense our biggest idol is ourself.

    Posted by zoebios121 | February 11, 2008, 3:01 am
  3. “It’s always a good indicator of what our idols are if we are unable to give it up when asked to. i guess in that sense our biggest idol is ourself.”

    I love that way of putting it too. I think the one exception though might be mothers and children. In that case, women often find that their children are even harder to give up than themselves… but it is good to remember that children are from God also, and for God to take what He has given is just like with anything else in life: money, time, etc.

    Posted by Lady Dragonart | February 11, 2008, 8:58 pm
  4. stewards. all of us. this also implies that nothing that we have belong to us. i guess i’ve always understood to an extent in my head what that means but never truly understood that until just recently. I have something in the works (among other things) based off of C.S. Lewis’ Mere Christianity.

    Posted by zoebios121 | February 13, 2008, 9:28 pm

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